Week II Day 13-14 : In Time With You

In time with you actually was a Taiwanese drama serial about friendship between woman and man. They met when they was in high school. And their friendship still continue and become more deep.

This Sunday, I want to spend my time to know You more my Lord. I want to build my relationship with You. I want to have quality time with you. I want to love You more.

After many things happen, and I met a lot of people, I realize that just You and You who love me more 

Week II Day 12 : A Conversation

Last night I had a conversation with friend. He said he has sixth sense. Also he told about his worries especially at work and about something... I don't know, could I believe his or not. But his statement made me love Jesus more and more...

Week II Day 11 : A Checklist Men, Lady and Best Friend

A week ago (maybe), I forgot the exactly time, I had a chat with my friend. We discussed about men whom look like "a godly men". And actually they are not really "a godly men". Why I said they are not "a godly men"? Because they are an arrogant about their spiritual life. The worst is they made a checklist for their spouse criterias and everytime they meet a woman, they are going to check the list.

This afternoon, I talked with one of my friend about this men. He said that what they have been doing was not good. What made me sad was he is worldly man (based on his facebook pictures). He loves party, alcohol, etc. So, if worldly man could said like that, what are a kind of that "godly men"? Are they really a godly men? I don't know.

Sometimes, a worldly man can look like godly man and opposite. Where is a godly man?

Now I am talking about LADY...

A minutes ago, I had a conversation with housemates. We was talking about one of our medical volunteer while a rain started. She is a very good doctor, mom, and wife. Ya... I wish that someday I would be like her. But if I wouldn't be, I wish that my life will satisfy my LORD. I still pray and try hard. Someday, I would be a godly woman. I have been starting with this journal. This journal is my commitment.

Best Friend...
I love to making friend. I wish that before I pass away, I could know a lot of people. But most of it, I wish I have a best friend. Someone who can accept me, love me the way I am. I don't way but this morning, suddenly I remember about this song...

"What A Friend We Have In Jesus"

What a friend we have in Jesus,
All our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry
Everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit,
O what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
Everything to God in prayer.

Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged;
Take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful
Who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness;
Take it to the Lord in prayer.

After what happen to me this days, make me know who is my truly and truthful best friend. I can take all my life to the Lord in prayer

Week II Day 10 : I Am Not A Lady Now But Would Be

A couple days ago when I was in Ketapang, one of my friend, an emergency resident English gentlement, he was looking at me when I ate ice cream. The ice cream was melting down and he said like this to me "You are not like elegant lady."

I have not been trying to blame him by this post. This is just my reflection.

When I heard this, I was going to change my characters. I would be a great lady. Hahahaha...

I am happy because this morning I woke up earlier than before. I didn't miss morning devotion and pray. And everything was okay.

I wish this will continue forever...

Week I-II : Day 6-9 : Trip

This afternoon, I cameback from Tanjung Puting trip with ASRI kids. It was so much fun trip actually but not with annoying kids. There was one kid who such a drama queen and also impolite boys. And I won't my kids become like them.

After this trip, I figured out what kind of mother and wife I should be. Also what kind of man that I should marry. What kind of my kids will be, I think it depend on what kind of mother I am. So, from now I want to learn how to be a mom and wife.

Before I can be a great mother and wife, the first thing that I should learn is how to love and serve Jesus Christ, the first in my life and heart.

I can't wait for next wonderful journey with Him...

Week I : Day 5 :

Wow.... I don't what I should write for this 5th day. Missed morning devotion and prayer again....

Week I : Day 4 :

Yesterday, I had a lot projects to do so I missed to wrote this journal. What I learned that day was...

Resusitation... Fluid... Hahaha... I love how dr. Ewen teached me how to organize my mind. To find my study method. But what made me feel sad was I missed morning devotion, pray. 

Week I : Day 3 : Fail

I have failed my commitment for two days... Hiks... Then I have hoping this day 3rd would be success. 

Checklist 1  : morning devotion and pray -> woke up late then missed it

Checklist 2  : ontime for teaching -> yeah... I didn't miss it. Okay it was good

Checklist 3  : focus in tutorial and clinic -> hmmm... just a little bit but is was okay. I will try it tomorrow

Checklist 4  : sloppy -> still

Checklist 5  : pray before study -> okay it work

Checklist 6  : procrastinate -> I hope it will not be happen this time. I will do my assignment a soon as possible

Checklist 7  : night pray -> I will do that

Okay... So the conclusion : Day 3 is fail. So wish tomorrow will be okay

Week I : Day 2 : Stay in Commitment

This is not actually my second day because when I was writing a journal, it was after midnight but never mind I can count it as second day. Hahaha...

You know what is hard for me? Stay in commitment because I am more easy to distract with anything. Like this morning when I woke up you what time it was? Five. Then what I did? I continued to sleep. It wasn't good. Then I had no time for morning devotion and pray. Oh my God what did I do?

Okay... Stay in commitment Yuli...

Then the other stupid things I did also were haven't finished my assignments, couldn't concentrate when we did patient round.

Week I : Day I : A Commitment

Introduction :
This is a silly commitment that I make. Hahaha... I don't know why but two or three days ago suddenly I had thought to read "Lady in Waiting" book again. I have already read it maybe a year or two years ago. Then a hour ago I decided to write a journal about what I learn from that book. I am going to practice a lesson from every chapter. So write a journal then evaluate my progress... Practice one chapter per week...

This is my first day in first week...

Stop... Stop Yuli. Don't ever think about him again. Don't open his facebook or email him. Don't... Don't... Don't... Get rid him out from your head and heart. Start a new relationship with my Heavenly Groom.

So... I will start a new day and close it with Him. Put Him on the top positition in my life. Be wise with every single word that I speak and be nice to everybody. Also I will pray regularly.

Today I also learn from great teacher how to tell a bad news to patient and/or family.

Because He First Loved Me by Fanny Crosby

I’m trusting, only trusting
In Jesus day by day:
I feel His presence nearer,
While pressing on my way;
My soul is full of glory,
And this my song shall be:
I love my blessed Saviour,
Because He first loved me.

I’m trusting, only trusting
In Jesus ev’ry hour,
Who saves me by His mercy,
And keeps me by His power;
I’ll publish His salvation
Wherever I may be;
With all my heart I love Him,
Because He first loved me.

I’m trusting, only trusting
My Saviour’s hand to guide;
I know His grace sufficient,
And ask for naught beside;
My soul is on the mountain,
My home beyond the sea:
O bless the Lord! I love Him,
Because He first loved me.

Chorus:
Because He first loved me.
I love Him, I love Him,
Because He first loved me:
I trust Him, I trust Him,
Wherever I may be.
My soul is full of glory,
I sing because I’m free;
I love my blessed Saviour,
Because He first loved me.

God hath not promised skies always blue by Annie Johnson Flint

• God hath not promised skies always blue,
  Flower-strewn pathways all our lives through;
  God hath not promised sun without rain,
  Joy without sorrow, peace without pain.
• But God hath promised strength for the day,
  Rest for the labor, light for the way,
  Grace for the trials, help from above,
  Unfailing sympathy, undying love.
• God hath not promised we shall not know
  Toil and temptation, trouble and woe;
  He hath not told us we shall not bear
  Many a burden, many a care.
• God hath not promised smooth roads and wide,
  Swift, easy travel, needing no guide;
  Never a mountain, rocky and steep,
  Never a river, turbid and deep.

Take the World, But Give Me Jesus! by Fanny Crosby

Take the world, but give me Jesus,
All its joys are but a name;
But His love abideth ever,
Through eternal years the same.

Oh, the height and depth of mercy!
Oh, the length and breadth of love!
Oh, the fullness of redemption,
Pledge of endless life above!

Take the world, but give me Jesus,
Sweetest comfort of my soul;
With my Savior watching o’er me,
I can sing though billows roll.

Take the world, but give me Jesus,
Let me view His constant smile;
Then throughout my pilgrim journey
Light will cheer me all the while.

Take the world, but give me Jesus.
In His cross my trust shall be,
Till, with clearer, brighter vision,
Face to face my Lord I see.

The Old-Fashioned Way by Civilla D. Martin

They call me old-fashioned because I believe
That the Bible is God’s holy Word,
That Jesus, who lived among men long ago,
Is divine, and the Christ of God.

Refrain

My sin was old-fashioned,
My guilt was old-fashioned,
God’s love was old-fashioned, I know;
And the way I was saved was the old-fashioned way,
Through the blood that makes whiter than snow.

Old-fashioned, because I believe and accept
Only what has been spoken from Heav’n;
Old-fashioned because at the cross I was saved,
At the cross had my sins forgiv’n.

Refrain

Old-fashioned, because I am bound to do right,
To walk in the straight narrow way;
Because I have given my whole life to God,
Old-fashioned because I pray.

Refrain

Old-fashioned, because I am looking above
To Jesus, my glorified Lord;
Because I believe He is coming again,
Fulfilling His holy Word.

Refrain

Make A Different

This is my first post in June. Yeah... This evening, I visited a small village near Gunung Palung with friends to socialized our programs : health and conservation. Powerpoint and videoclip were the media that we were used. I was impressed with my friend presentation. Health and environment are two component that related each other. We will have healthy life if our environment is protected.

On the way back to our house, I was contemplating about that presentation. I thought about how precious my work as a doctor. This job can save people life from suffering because of diseases and also make people feel love.

This presentation gave me a new insight to study hard and seriously with my life. I hope I will have a meaningful life. I am praying for this programs. I hope this programs can save people and also environment not only now but also in the future.