Good News

After a months have not written, finally I am writing again. Too many subjects want to write but afraid because this blog is read by people.  Wakaka... Besides I am too lazy lately. Yeah that "Lazy" factor, I am struggling fight to remove from worst characters that I have. Now let me telling a story.

Since 2-3 days I always take a notice about my city, Jakarta. Honestly, I don't like Jakarta although this city offer a lot an intersting entertainment to be chosen, easy access for information. Why I don't like it? Yeah because this city is hot, stucking traffic, dusty, and especially high living cost because I am very consumptive.

Yeah talking about Jakarta, of course still fresh in our memory a few months ago Governor and Deputy election. Finally Joko Widodo and Basuki Tjahaya Purnama were chosen for that duty. This topics will not end to discuss soon. Their unusually records amazed me. Lated euphoria for me. It must be admitted in many thing I always be lated. From beginning, I've abreasted with this since Deputy of Governor's anger to university student. Why? Simple answer, "This person is also high tension just like me." Not like I think about important person should restrain anger, always smile, especially poker face like shown by a lot people who admit they are matur, wise, etc. Actually I have story about poker face but not discuss in here. The point is I considered this Deputy of Governor is ordinary person whom could angry not a half god and not fake his personality. 

Curiousity about him, I accessed his personal site. In that site, I read many comments pro and contra him from netter. Also intersted in topics about campaigns that have done by supporters when election. Wow... Really very cohesive supporters. They campaigned this candidate Governor and Deputy not only to Jakarta's people but also Indonesian. Every supporters campaigned and asked their acquaintance to chose this candidate.

Also I've interested with Deputy of Governor statement when he was asked by journalist about Christmas's meaning for him in his open house a days ago. Mr. Basuki Tjahaya Purnama said, "Christmas's meaning for me is about social justice for poor people." WOW once again... This statement is remembering me about God's Word which sound like this, 

“The Spirit of the Lord is on me,

    because he has anointed me
    to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners
    and recovery of sight for the blind,
to set the oppressed free,
¹⁹     to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.”
Luke 4:18-19 NIV

I don't want to offend people of other religions well but I believes Indonesia will fulfill with year of the Lord's favor through the Governor and deputy Governor especially Jakarta. Talk about this actually in the context of these words to convey that Jesus is  revelation of the "Good News ". Therefore, just like the election, how nice if everyone who has heard the "Good News " is offered and persuade people around him/her to confess Jesus Christ is his/her Savior.

Merry Christmas everyone. Let's celebrate our King.

Even Me

Today morning devotion takes from Our Daily Bread issued tittle "Even Her" that tells me about Rahab. Properly complete reading can see at http://odb.org/. I love this sentences...

God’s love is amazing that way. He can take people with a bad reputation, transform their lives, and turn them into examples of His love and forgiveness. If you think you’re too bad to be forgiven or if you know someone else who feels that way, read about Rahab and rejoice. If God can turn her into a beacon of righteousness, there’s hope for all of us.

From today morning devotion I learn about "Forgiveness and Second Chance". 

Let me tell you something about me that you never know.

Previously, I was a person who expected, looked for, and considered perfection but truthly not like that. I am not perfect. I striked down intensely by failed UKDI (Ujian Kompetensi Dokter Indonesia) and aggravated by came late when Hippocratic Oath Ceremorial. Yeah... This is a thing that shocked my life and be my turning point. 

People lower me. They ridicule me. How does it feel? Does it hurt? Absolutely very hurt. From top position, suddenly fall down. I have occation for complain many thing, myself, people and include God.

Not only that. I've found reality that have shocked me. People who previously religious but now are becoming same with world. People who apparently religious but in reality not like that. They pretend religious. They are hypocrite. I ever ask myself, "To survive alive do I become hypocrite?"

Maybe in people's view, I am a loser but someone does not think like that. She gives me an opportunity to correct all my mistakes. She gives me a second chance. 

God's Word today teach me about forgiveness that He offers to me and also be humble. He opens opportunity for me to repent and correct myself by a chance that she offers.

If you are falling into sin now, feel yourself not worthy to forgive, remember this... Rahab who was a sinner but has given second chance by God and her name recorded in history as King David's great-great grandmother and that she was in the lineage of our Savior, Jesus. And there’s more. Hebrews 11:31 names Rahab as a woman of faith who was saved from the fall of Jericho (see Josh. 6:17). And in James 2:25, her works of rescue were given as evidence of her righteous faith. And also remember that nobody is perfect even faithfull men in Bible. They are sinner but forgiven.

And more over, if you are on high position, give second chance for people whom repent their sins and want back to right way. Don't you ever judge them.

I pray that amazing God day by day watch over us. Amen...

The Man I Love

Today by incident I found a good song "The Man I Love". I remember someday before, someone ever asked me about finding spouse. Hmm... I think this is not the right time. Maybe... Because of I love this song too much, I want to share it...

When the mellow moon begins to beam,
Ev'ry night I dream a little dream,
And of course Prince Charming is the theme,
The he for me.
Although I realize as well as you
It is seldom that a dream comes true,
For/To me it's clear
That he'll appear.

Some day he'll come along,
The man I love
And he'll be big and strong,
The man I love
And when he comes my way
I'll do my best to make him stay.

He'll look at me and smile
I'll understand ;
And in a little while,
He'll take my hand ;
And though it seems absurd,
I know we both won't say a word

Maybe I shall meet him Sunday
Maybe Monday, maybe not ;
Still I'm sure to meet him one day
Maybe Tuesday will be my good news day

He'll build a little home
Just meant for two,
From which I'll never roam,
Who would - would you ?
And so all else above
I'm waiting for the man I love.

I pray to all single ladies that we do...

Oneday If You Read This Note

Today, I realize one thing that I have been hurted you so much. I am really sorry about that. Well, I deliberately write this note on purpose if one day you can read it. Related with Serendipity movie (you know that?), if you really really shall be predestined to read this then it will be.

I knew your feeling to me. You ever loved me. Trust me. I ever felt the same. Neither afraid of this feeling nor I don't believe you enough. I can't entrust my heart to someone whoever leapt me with joy then also say he was considering another. How I can trust to someone whoever made me fall in love then say he closes to another girl? Not only you have been hurted but me. Maybe we both don't match one to other. You turn to the left and I turn to the right.

Whenever you read this note, in the same time you already got happiness. That what I always whisper in my prayer. You can say, "I forgive you. This is mature me."

Ketika Pompa Air Mati (Part 2)

Apakah ada yang tahu bagaimana cara mengukur kedewasaan rohani seseorang?

Apakah ada yang bisa memberitahukan apa isi pikiran orang lain tanpa diberitahukan?

Apakah ada yang tahu rahasia gelap temannya?

Jika dihadapkan dengan pertanyaan seperti itu aku dengan pasti akan menjawab tidak tahu, tidak bisa. Karena itu tentunya pada tidak tahu kan kalau beberapa waktu belakangan ini hubunganku dengan Tuhan sempat tidak harmonis. Ketidakharmonisan hubungan itu membuatku pun jarang bercakap-cakap dalam hal ini berdoa pada-Nya karena aku itu paling malas berkomunikasi dengan orang yang tidak kusukai. Pokoknya kalau boleh seumur hidup ga usah ketemu. Hahaha... Sadis banget ya aku? Nah sudah beberapa hari ini aku merasa Tuhan ngajakin aku baikan. Minta supaya aku temenan lagi sama Dia. Kalau aku sudah diajakan baikan gitu, pasti deh aku terima. Selain karena aku memang suka temenan, lebih-lebih ini Tuhan lho yang ngajak baikan duluan. Akhirnya kami temenan lagi deh. Nah ceritanya kalau baru baikan biasanya ngobrol yang ringan-ringan dulu. Tadi siang sebelum pergi aku berdoa dulu. Salah satu isi doaku itu supaya pompa air bisa hidup lagi. Aku paling malas repot. Dalam hal ini malas harus manggil tukang yang entah berada di mana.

Seperti yang sudah kuceritakan di Part 1, sewaktu iseng-iseng memutar keran eh tiba-tiba keluar air. Wuih... Senangnya hatiku. Hahahaha... Tuhan mendengar dan menjawab doa anak-anak-Nya. Hal tersebut kembali mengingatkanku pada jawaban doa-doaku selama ini. Ketika aku berpikir Tuhan itu jahat karena tidak menjawab doa-doaku, tidak mengabulkan keinginan-keinginanku, sebenarnya tidak seperti itu. Dia tahu apa yang terbaik buat kita...

Dia memberi kita roti untuk dimakan...

Dia selalu memberikan pertolongan tepat pada waktunya...

Ayo bagi yang lagi musuhan sama Tuhan, cepat baikan sana...

Bagi yang merasa Tuhan jahat, ayo... Hitung berkat-berkat yang sudah kamu terima...

Ketika Pompa Air Mati (Part 1)

"Tahu ga kenapa aku suka sekali sama orang yang rajin?"
A. Karena aku orangnya juga rajin sehingga sering bete sama orang yang malas
B. Karena orang rajin sangat membantu dalam meringankan pekerjaan
C. Karena orang rajin bisa diandalkan
D. Karena orang rajin membuat pekerjaan cepat selesai
E. Karena aku orangnya malas

Seandainya aku menanyakan pertanyaan itu, secara logika pasti sangat mudah dijawab karena jawaban E itu sendirinya yang tampak menonjol. "Aku suka sekali sama orang yang rajin karena aku orang malas".

Sudah dua hari ini pompa air di rumahku ngaco. Memang pompa air itu suka sekali ngaco sejak dulu. Ngaconya bikin orang jadi senewen. Ngaco kenapa? Karena masa hari pertama sejak subuh sampai sore dia mati. Eh  malam entah kenapa tiba-tiba dengar suara air di kamar mandi (aku lupa matiin keran). Yiah... Dia hidup lagi. Terus hari kedua (yakni hari ini) sejak pagi dia mati lagi. Akhirnya aku mandi pakai air galon. Dan... Coba tebak apa yang terjadi saat tengah malam aku iseng-iseng puter keran di kamar mati? Tebakan anda benar sekali. Keran tersebut mengeluarkan air.

Seperti yang telah kutulis di atas, pompa air itu memang suka ngaco alias suka tiba-tiba mati. Pada saat pompa air mati, aku berjanji pada diri sendiri bahwa aku akan rajin bersihin rumah. Habis makan langsung cuci piring. Kan ngeselin kalau mau cuci piring tapi air tidak ada. Nah masalahnya aku itu orangnya malas, kurang disiplin, suka menunda pekerjaan, dan sederetan kebiasaan buruk lainnya. Karena itulah aku suka panik sendiri apabila sudah dekat deadline. Seperti yang terjadi sekarang. Piring dan baju belum dicuci sementara air tidak ada. Sejak dahulu kala, aku sering berjanji akan mengubah semua kebiasaan buruk tapi sayangnya janji itu cuma terjadi beberapa kali saja selebihnya pasti kembali seperti semula.

Tadi secara tidak sengaja saat bolak-balik halaman belakang buku, mataku tertuju pada judul "WHAT HE MUST BE... if He Wants to Marry My Daughter". Judul buku tersebut membuatku berpikir tentang "WHAT SHE MUST BE... if SHe Wants to Marry My Son". Judul baru yang kupikirkan itu membuatku teringat akan sebuah perkataan, "Jadilah seorang pria/wanita seperti yang anda ingin anak-anak anda nikahi". Tertusuk hatiku ini dengan perkataan itu.

Jika aku menyukai orang rajin dan menginginkan anak-anakku menikahi orang dengan sifat seperti itu, maka aku tidak boleh malas. Semoga komitmen ini bisa ditepati seumur hidup. AMIN...

Kalau pengen punya pasangan yang punya kriteria A, B, C, sampai Z... Maka kamu pun harus punya kriteria A, B, C, sampai Z itu. Kan harus adil... Masa kamu hanya ingin menerima tapi tidak mau memberi?

Aku Ingin Bercerita Pada-Mu

Aku ingin bercerita pada-Mu
Tentang peristiwa yang terjadi dalam hidupku

Aku ingin bercerita pada-Mu
Tentang mimpi-mimpi yang tak terkatakan pada yang lainnya
Karena aku takut mereka akan mengolok-olok
Mengatakan aku berhayal seperti kanak-kanak

Aku ingin bercerita pada-Mu
Berbagi kebahagiaan dengan-Mu
Tentang cinta yang kuterima hari ini
Tentang kecemerlangan yang kulakukan tadi

Aku ingin bercerita pada-Mu
Membagi dukaku dengan-Mu
Tentang luka yang kuperoleh
Tentang hati juga tubuhku yang tertoreh

Aku ingin bercerita pada-Mu
Berbisik mengenai rahasia-rahasia gelap yang mengendap di sudut pikirku
Aku tidak ingin orang lain tahu lalu mereka mencelaku
Tidak tahu di mana akan kusimpan malu

Aku ingin bercerita pada-Mu
Tentang sepi hidupku
Ketika aku ditinggalkan sahabat-sahabatku
Dan orang-orang yang mengaku cinta padaku

Aku ingin bercerita pada-Mu
Ya... Aku ingin bercerita pada-Mu
Namun bibirku kelu
Tak satu jua kata yang terucap dari bibirku

Aku ingin bercerita pada-Mu
Ya... Aku ingin bercerita pada-Mu
Namun hatiku ragu
Sudikah Kau meluangkan waktu
Hanya untuk mendengarkan ceritaku?